I write something in Mid-day, but I feel good. I wanted to write/type about it because I guess its rare now-a-days for me to write something in my blog, so I feel good enough to do so. :p
Today should be kind of laid back. Math class is at 6 through 9pm, so that's not TOO bad
(Even though I HATE math).
Just the usual...dishes, cleaning up after myself...ehh...
I'm excited to see what kind of drama Chelsea has to show me; it should be interesting.
Lastly, I hope to finish Silent Hill 3 today...I'm almost done and I'm glad I'm almost done...
(Can something get more demented? I don't think so...)
So that's all, just a short post on my life. Enjoy your day ^.^
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Too much....
...This. Typing of my problems all the time. When am I going to be motivated to type positively again? Why is it every time something goes right...something else goes wrong? I won't ever ask for a perfect life...but a person can only wish for a better one...
I have so much to say...so much I want to express...but I'm just too depressed right now...
It's this stupid candy in front of my face. It's my stupid friends. It's me JUST BEING ALIVE. When can I see the day when people smile,....everyone smiles. When can I see the day when problems are the past..and the past is gone....
"I remember you, your beautiful face."
"I remember you, your wonderful voice."
"I remember you....when you we're you...."
Important words last forever when they mean something...you remember every last moment of them.
So I sit alone tonight..curled in my chair, a blanket wrapped around me like the arms of a loving person...thinking of what I used to think.
"I remember when you we're you Corey."
...But memories are just...memories.
I have so much to say...so much I want to express...but I'm just too depressed right now...
It's this stupid candy in front of my face. It's my stupid friends. It's me JUST BEING ALIVE. When can I see the day when people smile,....everyone smiles. When can I see the day when problems are the past..and the past is gone....
"I remember you, your beautiful face."
"I remember you, your wonderful voice."
"I remember you....when you we're you...."
Important words last forever when they mean something...you remember every last moment of them.
So I sit alone tonight..curled in my chair, a blanket wrapped around me like the arms of a loving person...thinking of what I used to think.
"I remember when you we're you Corey."
...But memories are just...memories.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
I'm....
Getting off schedule again....
Excited and worried for Valentines day....
Hungry....
Tired....
and...yeah, here it goes. Depressed.
When you look at other people lives and think to yourself "Wow..they really don't know what they have".
You say that because maybe you know what it's like to lose something...maybe you say that because you know what that person will be like if that certain loss comes true.
Right now...I don't know what's going on...
My life is hard...I put myself down too much, I know I do. I have a lot going on and I try to cover it all up...
I get lazier by the second..I ate 3 bags of candy last night...
Oh...I'm putting myself down again, here I go. Yeah, I'm trying to stop, I really am. It's just that I'm just not satisfied. I want my life to be better, the way I want it. I believe if life was the was I wanted it, even the people around me would be more happy.
Besides me ranting about my view on my life right now, I also have to talk about my Girlfriend. Yeah, Girlfriend.
Since I last posted here(Over a month ago) I asked her out again. I did it because...well...I had this feeling inside that told me if I did, everything would get better. And things did. I usually only post in this blog to tell you about my problems...well...I don't have enough to write about, but now I do...I have a TON to write about. I mean, type.
I feel like I'm treating her bad, not anything like I used too. It's just my mindset, the way it is now. It's just not how I used to be. My first though on a problem if she had one would be "That's terrible to hear, I'll ask if she needs help." Now? The first thing that comes out of my mouth is something along the lines of "TOO BAD". Yeah, I don't REALLY mean it, but I think I need to be more mature about it 90% of the time. I'll try harder to make things better, I really wish I had help doing it though...I need it.
Last but not least....MY HAIR. What do I do with it all?! It's getting out-of-control-long and I don't know if I want it cut. I remember...around 6 years ago or more, It used to be short. Real short. But that was years ago....I might not like it again as I did then. It's less to deal with, there's no such thing as a bad hair day...on and on and on...
I dunno...I'll lastly double check with the boss to see what she has to say about it...I know she likes it long.
That's all...until problems arise again.
Excited and worried for Valentines day....
Hungry....
Tired....
and...yeah, here it goes. Depressed.
When you look at other people lives and think to yourself "Wow..they really don't know what they have".
You say that because maybe you know what it's like to lose something...maybe you say that because you know what that person will be like if that certain loss comes true.
Right now...I don't know what's going on...
My life is hard...I put myself down too much, I know I do. I have a lot going on and I try to cover it all up...
I get lazier by the second..I ate 3 bags of candy last night...
Oh...I'm putting myself down again, here I go. Yeah, I'm trying to stop, I really am. It's just that I'm just not satisfied. I want my life to be better, the way I want it. I believe if life was the was I wanted it, even the people around me would be more happy.
Besides me ranting about my view on my life right now, I also have to talk about my Girlfriend. Yeah, Girlfriend.
Since I last posted here(Over a month ago) I asked her out again. I did it because...well...I had this feeling inside that told me if I did, everything would get better. And things did. I usually only post in this blog to tell you about my problems...well...I don't have enough to write about, but now I do...I have a TON to write about. I mean, type.
I feel like I'm treating her bad, not anything like I used too. It's just my mindset, the way it is now. It's just not how I used to be. My first though on a problem if she had one would be "That's terrible to hear, I'll ask if she needs help." Now? The first thing that comes out of my mouth is something along the lines of "TOO BAD". Yeah, I don't REALLY mean it, but I think I need to be more mature about it 90% of the time. I'll try harder to make things better, I really wish I had help doing it though...I need it.
Last but not least....MY HAIR. What do I do with it all?! It's getting out-of-control-long and I don't know if I want it cut. I remember...around 6 years ago or more, It used to be short. Real short. But that was years ago....I might not like it again as I did then. It's less to deal with, there's no such thing as a bad hair day...on and on and on...
I dunno...I'll lastly double check with the boss to see what she has to say about it...I know she likes it long.
That's all...until problems arise again.
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